Ed has been home with us since the Friday before she was born...so over a week!
And we have worked well together to transition our family from one of four to one of five.
I have not rested as much as I should have, and now I am feeling the impact.
Sydney has been sleeping like a dream at night, well maybe not like a dream, but wayyyyy better than I ever expected. She has consistently slept for 2-4 hour chunks from 9pm -8am. She and I have worked out a nice routine during her 45-30 minute nursing breaks in the night. I know that this is just a stage and for right now her sleep is decent and it could change any night. But I am thankful that I am finding that these last few nights have been good.
I am now entering the countdown to being a mama of three on my own during the day.
I am starting to realize that Ed will be going back to work and the long days are about to become my reality again. The snow, his work load, and the commute can impact his home arrival time and it is making me sad to think of our time with him going back to the couple of hours at night when we are all done for the day.
There are moments when I am feeling confident about the new reality.
And jumping into it is exciting and inevitable.
I know I have some great friends that are ready to step in and help if I feel overwhelmed.
The thing is, when you are sleep deprived and running on survival mode, you don't always know if help is what you need to be asking for. And to ask your husband is sometimes just more easy.
So my anxiety is rising.
My emotions are edgier.
And this mama of three is feeling the new reality approaching and hoping that it all goes well.